my life, my rules.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

love

i wanna talk about love today.
there's so many types of love.
for God, family, friends and that special someone.

God.
no matter how 'bad'
or how 'good' we are, we turn to Him
for our spiritual needs.
when we are at our lowest, an we feel
that there's no one out there who
unedrstands us, we turn to Him.
it doesnt matter if we're pious or not,
(i'm not saying that we shouldnt be all tt,
but let's say some people out there isnt)
we voice our thoughts, our doubts,
our wishes to Him.
which is why i guess, those who always remembers him
are always the ones void any feelings of depression.
To feed our soul spiritually gives us the kind
of freedom that no money can buy and no one can give.

family.
this i am guilty.
cos of biasness.
those who are very close to me will noe
tt the family member i love most is no longer in this world.
he's my late maternal grandfather,
he passed away many years ago.
but if i can remember someone who passed away so vividly,
it certainly shows how much i love him right?
i guess he's the one who makes me so fun-loving,
yet so focused when i want to get something done.
and yeap, not to mention tt pampered side of me
that everyone 'loves'.
haha.
i'm from a close-knit, very strict family.
i used to give my family loads of prob back then when i was
in sec sch.
alwaes rebelling for freedom, this and dat.
looking back right now, it all seems so funny,
the things i used to argue abt.
but i'm thankful for the discipline.
it helped me to balance my lifestyle and not to veer to much
to one side.
but of cos, discipline is not nothing without family warmth.
a lot of ppl can say that they haf strict parents,
but having rules, regulations, without a family u can
turn to in times of need is of no use.

ie. this is a conversation i had with my dad a couple of days back.
me : *talkin on the fone to san* yea ok, i'll think abt it. bye.
(then looked out of de window, it was raining. i love de rain)
dad : why are u so quiet? u want to talk abt something?
me : er no, i was lookin at the rain la.
dad : ahaha. oh. baru nak concerned sikit.

bad example i guess, haha. but u get wad i mean. parents noe
when u have a prob. even when u dun say.

the other half.
my bestest fren n confidante.
every obstacle brings us closer.
to those in a relp: don compare with other ppl's relp.
it's unhealthy, and sometimes, u will onli hurt urself by doing tt.
think abt ur own happiness, fight for it.
to those abt to be in a relp : hehe. u noe hu u r. follow ur heart,
stick to ur decision and dun worry abt the rest. =)
to those single ones : he/she is stuck somewhere in traffic or took
a wrong turn. they'll come in due time, not to worry. dun look too hard
k.
to the heartbroken ones : u noe i'm here if u guys need someone to confide in.
but it's up to u and nobody else to pick urself up, move on and noe wad's best
u. good luck k.

to those still in my life after all these years, thank you. =)