judging from the number of hits on my blog,

i know everyone is waiting for me to say wad's on my mind.

and i'm gonna do so without being so direct.

cos there are people involved, and i don wan to bring them

into my story.

everything u hear, there's alwaes 3 sides to the story.

his side, her side, and de truth.

rem tt.

before tt, i really wanna extend my gratitude to those who kept

me strong the wholfe of yesterday.

i don wanna list everyone, but trust me, everyone i talked to

are such darlings. i really love u guys so very much.

everyone has given me their take on the matter

and i appreciate tt.

to those who have thot tt my relationship was a happy one,

and those envious of us,

i really hope tt it wont cloud ur perception on love.

to experience all this during the fasting month was truly a challenge

but it made me much stronger.

i guess He has it all planned.

I surprised myself by how i handled it too.

when you love someone, when u associate that person with the words

'commitment', 'plans', 'future'... and anything along those lines

please do not take him/her for granted.

treasure that person.

if you are tempted to do sth tt would jeopardise de relp,

think abt the good times.

think abt the times when he/she was there for you.

wad he/she did for you.

actually, think abt de bad times too.

think abt how you two managed to overcome tt.

aft all tt u have been thru,

i'm pretty sure tt the temptation would die there.

if you are the third party,

please think twice before doing what you wanna do.

no matter how much you hate your rival,

no matter how strong your feelings for him/her is,

don do anything tt might break anyone's relationship.

it's just not right.

i'm not pointing fingers.

it took 2 hands to clap.

and it had to be sth tt made him extend tt hand.

maybe i'm simply not good enough.

maybe i'm flawed as a partner.

i'm not really sure wad i wanna do.

but wadever it is, i have to decide on a clear head.

so i have to get rid of this anger, this disappointment.

and tak baik to get involve with things like this during ramadhan,

it sidetracks you from your real obligations.

so i'll just take my leave quietly

and leave de rest to Him.

if i am destined to move on, den i hope He would give me the strength

to do so.

if all this is a lesson to him, den i hope He would give him the strength

to change, to mend wad's broken, to be a better person.

to say that i'm ok with everything is a lie.

to you,

i hope you take the time to think abt things.

if the two years with me really mattered,

if you really meant the things you said,

you really need to get ur act together.

saying soemthing, and doing sth else

isnt gonna help.

no one comes up a winner from all this anw.

i noe tt i haven been the greatest girl to be with

but i still deserve the respect and the basic courtesy

of being told the truth.

doing sth behind my back, den telling me how much u love me

isnt gonna make me weak in de knees san.

if u are angry tt i told ppl abt it,

den see it in a positive light.

approach them.

listen to wat they have to say.

take it from there.

often, we are blinded by wad we had,

our principles get pushed aside.

sometimes we need other ppl to guide us,

or at least snap us back awake.

wadever it is, if he does approach u guys

listen to wad he has to say and say wad he has to hear

and tt goes the same for u too.

thanks for reading.

if u have anything to say, do tag wad's in ur heart.

i really dun mind.