i've been blogging since i was a student in tpjc.

so my close frens would noe tt at de end/start of every yr,

i'd do a recollection of de past yr.

this yr wun be any different.


so basically, every yr, i'd have a dilemma on how i should

go abt doin it. startin from jan all de way to dec?

or starting on myself, love life, family, frens?

but then again, my blogs werent as public as this current one.

i noe some ppl are wondering why i choose to advertise my life this way.

well, obviously wad u are getting is like 50% of my life.

notice tt i talk abt issues and events.

i hardly talk abt my feelings and my probs, which accounts for de other 50%

and tt is only accessible to those i talk to.

i realise now tt when feelings are concerned, u shouldnt blog abt it.

it'll be a whole new prob in itself.

so this yr, i'm gonna do a shorter recap than de past few yrs.

de rest of it, i'll tell my loved ones face to face. =)

so 2005.

the year tt i went back to sch following a semester of leave of absence.

a brand new attitude towards sch. no more slacking. and no more sleeping in class.

most importantly, to take care of my health.

and alhamdulillah, it's paying off.

of cos, i had a few scrapes here and there.

the early part of 2005 saw me get into all de wrong project grps.

but i managed to get thru it all.

de second part of 2005 saw me suffer cos of CORS screw up.

didnt get half of de modules i wanted.

so got into crappy modules. and to tell evryone de truth, i want even stressed.

i was actually clueless. esp philosophy. didnt noe wad de heck i was doing.


family wise, i'm de eldest daughter but the most pampered one.

stronger ties with everyone in de family.

of course, living under one roof, bound to be some disagreements,

especially with my very LOUD family members.

but aft 21 yrs, u get used to it, and slowly end up loving it.

nw tt me n san have been togethr for 2 yrs now,

the family, and mum especially, have been increasingly supportive of us.

and nothing matters more than parents' blessings.


frens.

2005 saw me strengthening my frenship with ppl who have been there regardless.

nothing makes me more appreciative than sharing my frens' happiness and sorrows,

and vice versa.

this yr, some of my frens have been through some tough times,

and i hope tt i was of some help in one way or another.

and i hope tt 2006 would be a happier yr for them.
unfortunately, i also broke ties with a few ppl.

to tell u the truth, i'm not sure whether i am sad or thankful things turned out this way.

maybe this is fate, that no one can get along with everyone.

and it's worse when thngs turn sour cos of misunderstandings. and tt no one

stuck ard long enough to hear any explanation.

what's funny is tt ppl i dun have a prob with seem to have a prob with me too.

i wun name anyone, but if u are reading this, think abt it.

isnt it funny tt we never got personal, we onli say hi when we meet,

but now i've become one of ur enemies or treat me as invisible.

i dunno whther i should classify it under cute or sad.

but i'll leave u guys as tt. if one day u all decide to hear from my side,

den maybe things will get better. for now, u have ur life, i have mine.


relatioship-wise, i hit a rough patch a few mths back.

i noe some ppl think i am silly to give it another chance.

i won try to justify my actions to those hu duno much.

but alhamdulillah, i'm pretty pleased with the progress.

and i am very happy with my love life right now.

i dun blog much abt it tho.

2006 will be de start of many new things. and hopefully, it's only gonna

get better for the both of us.


for myself, 2005 saw me turning 21.

although i don look de part, haha, i knew i should make some changes.

who wants to be known as the "tudung-wearing biatch" right?

even tho comments like tt come from ppl hu barely noe me,

but i guess i should try to turn their blatant words of venom into

constructive criticism and work on it.

well, we all wanna improve on ourselves, one way or another.

i am no exception.

maybe some ppl will change their opinion on me.

or maybe not.

but i work at pleasing myself, before others.

to everyone else, may 2006 bring u more happiness. =)

atthisptoftime,iseektheforgivenessofoneortwopplttwunbehearingmuchfrommeantimefromnow.

toyou,ifuhappentoreadthis,inoewadhappenedafewnitesago.wadwehadwasapuremistake.
andtosaveourfrenshipisjustbutanexcuse.truthis,uneversawmeasjustafren.

anditwasjustaswellthatyoumistookmybfformewhenhewentonlineusingmyacct.

becosifnot,iwouldhavenevergivenuptryintochangeuintoabetterguy.

becosifnot,i'dhaveneverseenttuonlilookformewhenuneedme.

i'msorryievergottonoeu.