rupa. darjat. pangkat. pingat.

i'm surprised, in this day, in this century

these things matter to some ppl.

sejak bila darjat menjadi ukuran

tata susila seseorang?

sejak bila darjat menentukan nasib seseorang?

rupa? issit for u to judge?

isn't it God given?

when u criticise tt abt me, are u not criticsing my Creator?

i just think it's bloody unfair ok.

i've been upset for days.

i'm tired of being upset, when it's beyond my control.

i would like to thank de people who talked to me,

messaged me in de middle of de night (thanks arh tong.. haha)

and those who tagged.

and de hug i got from mary dearest.

bottomline is,

i just think it's bloody unfair that i'm being judged for

no absolute reason, by people who hardly know me,

who threw strong criticisms my way.

they say our elders bagaikan Quran buruk,

walaupun dah lapuk dek panas, lekang dek hujan,

ditelan dek zaman,

harus dijunjung kerana pengalaman mereka.

like mum alwaes say.."aku dah makan garam dulu la sebelum kau"

so i hope these people wont jeopardise the place they have in our lives.

i've alwaes respected my elders,

tak kiralah i ni duduk diam membisu, smile once in a while or not,

tapi my parents have given me the best lessons on how

to respect ppl and myself.

and by critising me, u r bad-mouthing my parents too.

can anyone accept tt?

i doubt so? so do i have the reason to be upset?

damn right i do.

i may not have the looks, the peramah-ness in me,

but i still have feelings.

i've been crying every night now.

wad should i do?

beg for acceptance?

if i'm not gd enough, why choose to say it now?

and you know wad i think?

compatibility is a very subjective issue.

and it's certainly not for you to judge.

Jangan kau pandang bibir yang manis
Kerana dia bisa menghancurkan
Jangan kau pandang wajah yang indah
Kerana dia bisa meracunmu

Dengarlah hai teman
Dengarkan bersama
Aku menulis bukan kerna nama
Kerna sifat kasih
Pada sesama insan
Dan menyatakan kasih sayangmu
Kita sama semuanya sama
Apa yang ada hanyalah kehidupan

Jangan kau dengar puisi dusta
Kerana dia bisa merosakkan jiwamu
Dengarkanlah puisi di pusaka
Yang telah turun temurun hari ini

Jangan kau alas hatimu itu
Dengan secebis warna kehitaman
Dialah seperti anai-anai
Lambat laun hancurlah dirimu