pardon the entry feeling2 nowadays ok.

if don like, refer to de previous entry. =p

today i am gonna attempt to answer the question,

ppl have been asking me.

as u all noe, 1+ mth ago, i was crumbling,

depressed, yada2.

so from then, til now, i haf gone thru

a huge emotional shift,

and thus, this makes ppl ask how i got out

of the mental web of depression.

1. spiritual guidance.

ok la, i am not gonna go into some ceramah here,

just stating tt we all need to believe n practice

this to strengthen ourselves spiritually.

because often, when we are bogged down my problems,

it's alwaes our mental state tt suffers first.

i used to have terrible nightmares,

or just be in the darkness crying out.

those are the times when being close to ur Creator

really helps a lot.

and u wun want to think stupid thots and act on it.

u shouldnt hurt urself more esp aft u've been hurt by others.

2. family.

i used to spend most of my time in my room,

used to treat my house like a hotel,

sometimes i dun come home.

i dun talk to my parents abt my problems,

no prizes for guessing who i turn to when i have a prob.

but... at the end of the day, when sth like this happens,

it's like a wake up call. or a slap.

no matter wad, ur family will alwaes be dere for u.

mums are naggers, but sometimes when we grow up,

mums actually get lost, dey dunno how to treat us.

we dun go crying to them whenever we have a prob now do we?

well ok, except when u are me, or shameem. =p

but really, family love surpasses all love between one person to another.

3. friends.

when i was attached, de first yr, i kinda ignored my frens.

i was lucky tt when he went for NS, i had the time to

rekindle my frenships with ppl.

to be fair, it's not just attached people who should be blamed.

sometimes our frens think tt we haf our other half

to do anything with us.

like watching movies for example.

so sometimes, if our other half dun haf de time, or dun like

tt particular movie,

we ask our frens, and dey'll usually go "oh.. i made plans to watch it

with so-and-so".. or "i already watched it yesterday la. y never ask earlier?"

we all need frens. i was stupid den to think i was alryte

with my family, and san, and prolly one or two frens.

but now, i think i go out more often tt when i was attached.

it's daily now la!

ahhahaa. i feel younggggg.

4. hobbies.

i blog. a lot. pic manipulation.

hooked on to channels 17,20,32,33.

chat. de moment i go msn, i'll get at least 4-5 ppl

saying hello. it makes me happie.

cook. play ps2.

occupying ur time doing stuff u love beats

idling ur time away wondering abt de future,

remisnicing abt the past. buang current je buat pe kan?

5. gurlfrens.

de few ppl who u can go out with often,

doll up, shop, sheesha, coffee, talk,

laugh, hold hands, and understands u.

make u feel beautiful, confident, inside and out.

anyway, yesterday i went out with mary.

it was a last minute thing.

yak yak yak at tamp.

we are turning into giggly sec sch girls.

masuk masjid nak solat pun funny ke?

ahaha. anyway, guess who we bumped into?

ryu and gang. haha. satu2 tak boleh duduk rumah diam2.

oh, slacked at century sq, eating de prata on the couch which

is at tgh2 dunia. but i loikeee.

de very obvious MINUS point abt yesterday,

which is actually farnee ah..

this :-

yup. same coloured tudung, top, jeans and bag.

mcm factory worker maner ntah.