for a while now, i keep talkin on how things change.

never really talked abt how ppl have changed.

including myself.

personally, bumping into san yesterday made me ponder.

in a gd way, not de cengeng, heartbroken type.

de image of san, sitting hunched, looking all scrawny,

smoking his life away prolly thinkin it's cool

tt he can do wadever he likes now dat he's alone

despite the fact tt all he's doing is shortening his freedom

with every puff.

he hated smokers last time.

once, i made him smoke cos i didnt believe he cant do it.

he puked 5 times and ppl thot he was drunk.

he hated mats, and he hated town.

he hated late nights on workdays,

and he took commitment very seriously.

he hated it when i got lazy to go for tuition and would

give me one fat long lecture abt it.

so yesterday, all tt changed.

i realised tt was the reason why i wasnt tt affected seeing him.

because to me, he's another guy now.

he's not the san i used to know.

if he thinks nothing abt him changed, u r so in denial boy.

when i first met him, he amazed me.

the things he said, did, or didnt do.

he amazed me like no other.

cant believe in 1 mth, someone can change tt drastically huh.

but i pray tt he's going thru a phase.

cos if u see him now, u all would prolly go,

"hmm. wad did nurain see in him back then?"

trust me, he was different. he used to amaze me.

on my side, i dunno. i am happy actually.

yes, occasional flashbacks make me sad,

but presently, i am loving my life.

i got closer to so many ppl,

and unlike my last break-up, i didnt waste it away.

despite being misunderstood by some ppl,

i dun even haf the time to bother much abt them

cos i am livin life man!

i haf really grown up going thru all this.

and mostly, i noe it's because of u guys.

everyone of u for going the distance tryin to make me

smile.

even a simple tag, or sms can make my day.

i actually feel very loved as i type all this.

giler. cant stop smiling. haha.

so thanks all *muacks*

meeting my girl ryu later! cant wait.

by de way, ally, aishah, next week oso can book me ok.

if u guys not free this week. =)

and dere's so many more ppl i would loveee to meet.

insyaAllah i'll ask others out when i can.

or u guys can do de asking too!

i'll say yes definitely if u are a girl, or if u are

an old guy fren who has known me for a long time.

cos.. i am not ready to go on dates yet.

so to.. er, u noe hu u r, i am sorry, i haf to decline.

i noe u r sincere, but i am really not ready.

sorry yea.

everyone, look out for my 'autograph book' entry tomoro,

where i talk abt my fav colour, drink, food, er.. wad else?

i have to dig out my sec sch autograph book.

i'm doin this so tt my new frens dun haf to ask me all this anymore.

pandai eh aku. =p