there's so much to update.

i dunno where to start.

and i am not gonna spill all.

so here we go!

wad i did since my last update.

fotos will be editted in later (lazy la now)

monday : went out with mary, ally n eff.

was my 2nd time hangin out with ally.

was full of nonsense.

was initially surprised to see ally n mary

clicking like tt.

expected it to be awkward, but it wasnt.

i guess it's all abt understanding and respecting each others'

lifestyles and realising tt

wad matters most, is wad's inside.

looking forward to more of such outings yea?

tuesday : met with a jc classmate, aishah.

it's been soooo long since i met up with her.

she's still de wonderful, warm person tt she is.

talking abt de past made me realise how much i had

changed over the years.

it seemed like someone managed to convince me tt i am

antisocial, and my onli fren is him.

when in fact, aishah reminded me tt in my jc days,

i was all warm n bubbly n fun.

maybe i still am. just tt i listened to de wrong person.

anyhow, i miss her so much and i am so glad i got to meet up with her.

more dates to come yea?

wednesday : went to school with my sis.

she makes me laugh.

i realise tt my sister is unique in her own way.

and dat, she noes wad kinda guy is gd for me.

de bfs of mine tt she hate, really turned out to be Aholes.

it was fun yesterday, showing her how lectures are like,

the food in de canteen, de abg who seem to flirt with me,

no thanks to ryu (haha), de library.

it was a fun, sisterly bonding time.

i deprived her of tt when i was with him.

sorry my dearest sista. promise to make more time for u from now on.

aft tt, at 7, met up with Su. while sis joined her frens at airport.

su is my publicity partner for this hip hop competition 4PM is organising.

i realised sth. i am not THAT bad in making new frens.

if su reads this, she would agree tt we clicked instantaneously.

from the moment we met, til de moment we said our gdbyes.

so glad tt i met her! *hugz*

thursday : so today. well, as usual, i haf plans.

but, i'll update abt my time tomoro.

for now, got other impt things to talk abt.

ready? this is the point of time where i get brutally honest.

and if YOU are reading this, pls just go somewhere else.

i dunno why u are so interested in my blog, and ally's.

to everyone else =), well, i have a confession to make.

tt altho it's been 1.5 mths, i was still hoping tt it's all one big fight.

til yesterday. i was so tired,

tt he was affecting my life, he was still threatening me like he used to.

he reminded me of the bad times with him.

anyway, i was listenin to Akon's Lonely on my mp3,

when i recalled a convo i had with him once. when de song just came out.

i told him tt i was damn sure tt if we broke up, he'll be listenin

to tt song on repeat mode.

he proved me wrong. i dunno if he's going thru a phase now, or

he's changed (yet again)

but i cant be with someone who gets so easily influenced by his surroundings

and so caught up with his own feelings.

i realised tt part of de reason why i still hope,

is cos i am de onli one who is aware of his condition.

i wun tell de world of cos (dun worry), but i do wish,

tt he would face up to it, tt he has a prob,

and do sth abt it.

cos i so symphatise with whoever is gonna be with him next.

plus, he has this sickening ability (ally, u can identify with this),

to sweet talk a new girl into believing tt his ex is evil.

it seemed weird to think of it now, tt i NEVER once saw it as a prob,

tt ally broke up with him because she wasnt happy tt he was clubbing.

how 'evil' is she to do tt?

i am so sure now, tt ppl in his world who dunno me n ally,

would think tt we're the world's biggest bitches or sth.

i wish i could do sth abt it,

but of cos, ppl are free to think wad they want.

and i wish i can warn every girl wad a wolf in sheep's clothing he really is,

but i cant. he's too smooth at doing wad he does best.

unless someone castrates him, he wun stop. haha.

wad i can say now, is tt, i can delete and erase of trace of u in my life,

but the memory of u still haunts me like a plague tt wun ever go away.

and i cant forgive u for now.

wish i can be a saint and just forgive,

but i cant. de wound is slowly healing.

and even when it's just a scar, i wonder if i'd hate u for leaving me

tt as a goodbye present.

today will be de last time i will talk abt de guy.

aft this, it's over.

and one day, for betraying the trust of 2 girls who once loved u

will all their hearts

and never even admitting to it,

karma will slap u in de face.

other news, i wonder if i should stop blogging for good,

switch to a more private blog,

or just turn to wordpress (which i dunno how to use).

ur thoughts?

quote of the day : "look at pussycat dolls songs. we've all been the "stickwityou"

girls. now our new mantra is the "don cha" song. why must we get envious

of ppl who are attached? and not the other way round?"

let's live life, have fun, my darling independent gurl frens.

and no, it doesnt include just pickin any guy up and seducing attached guys.

we're above all tt. =)