fool me, fool me, go on and fool me.

today i am gonna talk abt de topic tt no one dares to talk

to me abt despite noeing tt this is my fav topic everrr.

i have alwaes been a lover, and i dun think i'll stop

anytime soon.

so talk abt it. tell me how happily in love u all are.

i seriously dun mind.

i remembered telling myself 3 yrs back,

when i just got out of a failed relationship

with de ex who i am sure will read this haha,

i told everyone and myself, "i will never put myself

in this situation ever again"

and who am i kidding?

soon, someone caught my eye, and my heart.

it was sth right out of the movies.

de whole fireworks, intense chemistry thing.

i am smiling as i type all this,

because i am so glad i experienced tt.

and i dun think i'll ever love tt way again.

remember when u guys were abt 12 or 13,

and u think tt love is all rosy and wonderful?

until u experienced ur first break up.

or when u jump into a relationship cos u wanna noe wad it feels like.

and den u get bored cos its not as fun

as u think it'd be.

tt happened to me.

when i was abt 16 yrs old.

and i broke up with the guy cos i didnt noe wad i was doing.

it wasnt love, obviously, and i got a lil bored,

getting into tt lil routine of meet-ups and calls.

but tt was 6 yrs ago.

and i am so sorry i treated him like tt altho i think

he's leading a very happy and charmed life with de gf right now.

truly happy for him.

this past 1 mth, when i opened up my world,

and my feelings for everyone else to scrutinise,

ppl have been doing the same.

telling me their situations.

initially, i was shocked, but now

i wanna be stronger not just for myself, but for them as well.

when i read abt how happy couples are,

my favourite one being shaikhah and andhika,

it makes me very very happy.

it's so nice to see how someone appreciates another tt much,

de respect, care and concern tt comes with it.

despite everything tt happened to me so far,

i love love, and i still hope i'd get another shot at it one day.

obviously not in the near future, cos de lady needs a rest,

to heal and feel again.

til tt time comes, i'm just gonna bask in other ppl's happiness.

if u all don mind. hee.