actually i promised someone tt de blog entry i've

ben storing in my head will be out here soon.

but seems like everytime i wanna write abt something

other than my life, my probs... sth will come up.

wad de hell sia.

i miss all my girls who have graduated outta here.

i'm having probs with de fucked up admin.

i mean seriously.

dere's this particular woman who needs a slap.

dah la i stress cos i didnt get a tutorial slot for

bio psych, a module tt i need to take to graduate.

i asked de lecturer, he told me to go to de dept and ask.

so i did, and this quite-nice young woman tried to help.

but maybe she's new, so she asked her senior or sth.

who happens to be one big bitch.

keep telling me tt if it's so hard to get a slot,

drop my module la.

bapak aku kaya pe. extend one more sem just for one module.

bloody hell.

i mean.. i dun get it.

in the end, i'm still gonna get de slot tt i couldnt get into.

reason being, it's a compulsory module for me,

and it's de only tutorial slot tt doesnt clash with any other lessons.

so wth. dey decline me, i haf to appeal, dey disapprove my appeal case,

tell me to go cors and just select any other slot and den do a swap if i like,

which dorang bodoh nak mampos tak paham bahasa when i told them tt

it's de only bloody slot tt doesnt clash with other lessons,

i have to come down on my FREE DAY tmr to do manual registration,

and in de end, i'm still gonna get tt particular slot.

so why de fuck doesnt de sch understand this very simple logic

and make me go round and round before coming back to sq 1?

wad de hell.

and, only of de modules tt i got last,

i missed de first lect. so i didnt manage to buy de coursepack.

i went to co-op, couldnt find de module code in de list of coursepacks avail.

asked de lect yest, he said sth abt having to order.

ok so went back dere, den dey insisted tt if it's not in de list,

means it's not there.

wth. de master copy mysteriously disappeared issit?

fucked up sia.

sorry u guys haf to listen to me go on and on.

i'm just pissed ah.

and it sucks cos i dunno who will understand wadever i'm going thru.

i mean, ok, it's just a minor thing,

ppl got worse probs than me,

but even a minor thing, if these fucked up ppl keeps getting to me

every single fucking day, can make me go crazy.

and it doesnt help tt i go home to find my myself de prob

for all de unhappiness at home.

did they bother asking me how i'm coping at skol now tt i am all alone?

no, everyone thinks i'm busy gallivanting out dere.

so yea. my fault again la. alwaes my fault wad.

just cos i smile, and act cute and crazy all de time,

doesnt mean tt's wad i really feel inside.

just tt.. everyone is used to nurain de bloody clown.

i haf mood swing sikit je, everyone scared.

i'm human u noe. i got feelings.

and i've been thinking abt de future a lot these days.

it's coming up in 3 mths.

i'm scared shitless to think abt wad happens aft tt.

wad life has in store for me.

maybe i just think too much la.

i need my frens.

girls, where are u...