everytime i go online dese days,

de first thing ppl will ask is if i've updated my blog.

sorry ppl, been bz.

so yes, aft i wrote de 'wanted' entry,

he read it, and he met me for dinner aft i met my fren.

thanks arh, next time i miss u again,

i put another 'wanted' poster. this time must have reward. hee.

so wad have i been doing since aft de camp?

de day aft, liyana came over to my place to burn de pics n videos.

it's a lot actually, so anyone who wants, pass me 2 or 3 cd-r k?

den we went for coffee at coffeebeans.

seems like evreyone prefer starbucks, except me. wonder y.

but coffeebean's cheesecakes are way better.

de day aft, met raphael.

he's one of de closest frens i had in jc.

everytime i meet him, mesti ader je change in image.

haha. so different from de guy i knew back in jc.

he treated me to gelare's waffles. bday girl wad. hehe.

met Is aft tt for dinner. =) thanks to de earlier post.

thursday, went out with suhailah.

did up my resume before tt. quite proud of my effort. hehe.

had ayam penyet at lucky plaza.

and met faezah. can click with her, so ok la.

went to simpang. su got stuck with 2 pampered girls,

so no choice, naik taxi home. hehe.

yesterday, date with de silly boy.

so happie he finished his last paper.

could sense de happiness. heh.

we went to simpang as usual,

i missed going dere with him u see. and vice versa.

had a wonderful time yesterday. thanks babe! =)

and today, gonna meet de besties at last.

for a while, cos they have bbq in de evening.

gonna go karaoke. greatttt.

but takper, as long as de company's gd, i'm fine with tt. =)

gonna talk abt a few things today.

past.

if u were to ask me, how many exs Is has,

who he went out with last time,

wad his life was like back den,

i'd smile, and shrugz.

i noe enough to trust him,

but not 100% becos i simply dun want to judge someone,

by his past.

and i am not comfortable with talkin abt mine either.

i dunno whther tt's a problem,

is it?

i'm just happie with de way things are now.

i have to admit tho, sometimes we meet ppl from our past,

on de streets, and we'd wonder how they are linked to our other half.

one-on-one.

i rememmbered asking this question before i went for camp,

but didnt have the chance to clarify why.

frens would noe tt i have more close guy frens than girl frens.

perhaps i cant handle frenships with girls on a deeper level.

de bitchin n backstabbing, gosh.

so those girls who are my frens, consider urself lucky k. hehe.

these days, ppl keep saying since i got attached, i keep going MIA.

it's actually cos of skol, and mebbe 4PM.

and now i kinda wanna meet up with my frens,

but i dun want ppl to think tt there's other intentions.

Is told me once, it's good to learn from ur own mistakes,

but it's better to learn from other ppl's mistakes.

tt's why i asked, cos i wanna noe wad's de best way to handle this situation.

bring Is along? but i dun want him to feel left out.

my mistake.

in my 22 years, i've made countless mistakes,

which has repercussions, no doubt,

but i hope ppl would have some sense,

not to let wadever i did in de past,

to affect their own life.

i cant help it if ppls judgments towards me are skewed,

but i just hope tt de past won be an issue anymore.

becos i stopped thinkin, doing, living my past.

and i hope u would respect tt. thank you.

between work n frenship.

i am a perfectionist.

when i am assigned to do sth, i will want to put my 110% into it.

and i treat de ppl i work with as professionals,

even if we share sth on a personal level.

i expect to be given the same treatment too.

respect has to be earned, and how does one earn it?

by being professional, working hand in hand in a team,

and taking care of the welfare of ur subordinates.

clearly, separate work n personal life when doing work.

a few days ago, someone said this...

"i like the fact tt she's straightforward. klu dier tak suka,

dia main shoot je. she doesnt mince words. she's not a hypocrite"

de person's not talkin abt me by de way.

but i do beg to differ abt wad he's saying,

everyone can say it out to ur face if they are not happie with sth,

everyone can be bitchy, everyone can be blunt,

but it takes a true professional,

to say out one's mistakes, but yet be truly objective abt it.

now tt will get one's respect.

personally, i think i did a gd job with everything i have been tasked with so far.

and although wad ppl say do matter to me,

i'm not taking in words from those who i feel are just deadweight to the team.

break.

with tt said, i am taking a break from volunteer work,

am still goin to teach tuition,

but wun be involved in any events for a few mths.

i need to focus on other issues,

and help out those who really appreciate my help.

ain tak merajuk, maybe just tired.

need to recharge.