been so absorbed with living out life aft sch,

tt i kinda forgot to sit down,

and reflect abt it.

yea, i am mellow like dat at times.

i noe ppl noe me as de hyper, kecoh girl,

but there is a time when i shut down,

and think abt wad's going on,

as a third party.

is tt normal or am i just whacked?

anyway,

these days i realise tt

i dun like to pour out my feelings

although sometimes it kills me inside.

and i have perfected de art of

being able to smile, talk, laugh

and joke even though i feel like crap inside.

it's killing me,

cos i think i act so well

tt ppl simply dun realise tt i am hurting inside.

oh well. talked abt marriage to friz.

as usual.

scares de hell outta me.

i am seriously tired.

but i really got to move on

cos i got so many things at hand to do.

k, enuff of de depressing entry.

tmr de usual hyper me will be back k.

and, happy 23rd birthday to my darling galfren,

one whom i have been missing dearly,

since she is no longer meeting me everyday,

tolerating my crap, day in and day out.

Sharifah Mariam, Happy Bday Darling, i heart u many many!