this is coming from the girl who grew up

with frens who told her that she would grow up different,

even though we all started off the same.

when we all did the same things, made de same mistakes,

ppl still look up to me cos i did well for my studies.

i was lucky that God blessed me the family who supported my academic, all de way.

but, my childhood frens were right.

while they went on to schools a stone's throw away from our pri sch,

i endured the 45 mins bus ride to a girls' sch.

from hanging out at the void decks, to just a cheery hi and bye,

and even that became just a nod to acknowledge my presence.

just because we turned out different.

most envied the way i am now,

but to me, i am no different from them.

it's just that i am given so many opportunities that they werent.

i'm sure if they were given as much opportunities as i did,

they'd be different too.

i'm no elitist.

i'm still that girl-next-door.

i still feel uncomfortable ard hoity toity ppl

and i still love my childhood days best.

maybe i am reliving all that right now,

being with a guy who has lived through the same childhood with me.

de bf went to the pri sch right beside mine,

and i absolutely love the times

when we reminisced abt the primary sch days,

the things we did, the places we go to.

simply becos it'll be de exact same things. or almost.

it's just that aft 12 yrs old, we went on to different paths.

i lived the "what ifs" listening to his life aft tt,

as he did mine.

things i have never ever ever experienced before in sec sch and beyond,

i listened almost in amazement.

de sch culture so different from mine.

sometimes i wonder, what if i had followed my heart

and got into a sch near home,

instead of following my frens' advise to go to cedar.

how different would i be?

i guess that will just remain a what if.