I gave a short talk yesterday to my committee.
Thanks to the chairpersons, Jack and Natra,
For allowing me to do so.

I felt a sense of responsibility, with the training
That I received, with the job that I am holding,
And of cos, my passion for volunteer work,
And for 4PM, regardless of the departments I work with.

I was just very glad that my committee, 80% were
First-timers to 4PM, first-timers in organizing a 4PM event,
Rose up to the challenge that sadly, was given
By our very own SUPPORT staff.
As I conducted my short motivational talk yesterday,
I was touched at the fact that a few individuals
Admitted that they weren’t contributing much,
And one even said that he had expressed the desire to quit
The committee, but stayed on.
I was glad that my committee supported these people,
Applaud their desire to stay on, applaud them for their honesty,
And cheered them up when they insisted they weren’t doing much.
I was glad that we are united, and I am glad that our chairpersons
Listen to our voices, and things are better now as a committee.

However, I am truly disappointed with my organization.
Truly disappointed that no one gave a check as to how we are coping,
And extremely disappointed that our very own SUPPORT staff
Expressed to the very FEW people who are still talking to her
At this point, that we should just quit.
That the camp should just be cancelled.
That “are you all sure you all can make it?”
She sniggered at us.
We are given til today to satisfy the number of campers
that she wanted, or else she wants to cancel it.
At 8PM sharp, she said she wanted to lock up.
This despite being left with only 48 hrs to prepare for the camp.
We even had to come up with invites to invite all the staff to come
For our campfire because some of them were asking me when is the date.
No one is clear abt the camp, because the staff-in-charge did not convey
Anything to them.

We are like lost sheep.
Last night, we held our meeting from 8-10+ pm at the outdoor sitting area
Near the stage (where the photoshoot for children’s day was at).
That was where I gave them my motivational talk.
Tell me, how to feel motivated in that kinda environment?

On Thursday, a day before the camp, if she is not gonna let us overnight there,
Or even stay til 11, I have no choice but to perhaps book a chalet or sth for my committee.
I have assumed this role because seriously, my committee needs someone to guide them.

As much as I try to be strong for my group and stay positive so that they will follow suit,
Part of me just feel so much for this grp of people,
Because we really don have the support, except for the 14 of us supporting each other.
And special mention to a staff who I have been seeking assistance from.
Thanks a lot for your concern. =)