i haf panda eyes today, thanks to me being up last nite.

i miss my arwah datuk.

i dun want to grow up. i wanna stay sheltered so tt

i wun ever have to act like an adult.

i noe i'm socially awkward, haf alwaes been.

sigh. maybe tt's my shortcoming.

my eyes are bloodshot too. puffy thanks to the tears.

i need my girlfrens.

a big hug from each of u please. thankiew.

the stupid song is replaying in my head over n over,

like a broken record.

sigh.

tell me, why issit tt when i try so damn hard,

it's still not good enuff for anyone?

maybe if i dun try so hard, den i wun feel de bruises

de next time i fall? possibly.

thank you for not asking too many questions,

and being ok when i was supposedly

not normal (ie. quiet) last nite.

and thank -you- for staying a fren

and caring.

meeting san now, a busy day today.

i think i'm gonna eat a lot tho.

comfort food.

u have no idea how much it hurts.

maybe, i need sth to make me more of a woman.

like a change in cosmetics.

to MAC? hee. ooo. i loike.

but maybe i'm happier staying a lil lost girl like this.

if only i can be selfish just once.