i was contemplating whether to blog my current situation down,

i hate getting a lot of flak just cos of wad i choose to say.

cos u noe wad usually happens when ppl who dunno better

choose to step on my toes.

so, tmr's saturday.

i am meeting de guy from my past.

shocked? ok, rewind.

a couple of days back, i met up with a fren,

a mutual fren of his n mine.

a closer fren of his, actually.

they've been hanging out dese days.

she set us up. we met for de first time.

we didnt even talk.

and den, next thing i noe, he asked me out.

i'm guessing to clear things up.

start over as frens.

i noe... tt a lot of ppl who really truly care abt me,

are agst de idea of me going along with it.

dese are de ppl who saw me thru de darkest period of my life.

some barely knew him, but seeing de impact he has on me,

how hard i worked to finally be in my almost-normal state today,

do not want me to reminisce, get hurt or get back to wad i had.

i am aware of de concerns u guys haf,

but perhaps, i am not de type to be able to move forward freely as long

as i haf questions lingering, or even revenge and hatred.

i want to be able to look back and smile.

someone said tt to me once, tt tt is de most impt thing at de end of it all.

and i agree. perhaps this is de last bit of closure tt i need.

don get me wrong. my life is going on smoothly now.

i love love love my best frens.

and de girls who haf stood by me since day 0.

my guy frens, who never fail to give me another perspective of things.

de peeps i can just go "eh i am bored. let's meet", even if it's late2 at nite.

and my darling 4pm bunch.

and of cos, to come home to a family who has alwaes been my strongest pillar of support.

perhaps, to buang yg keruh, ambil yg jernih is all tt i need.

and i truly hope u guys understand.

anyway, it's Baybeats 2006. yeay!!!

happi aku. haha. cant wait to see wad's in store.

pop down to esplanade yea ppl!

i was dere last yr too, altho it's tiring going to and fro de 3 places

where performances were held, i really did haf fun.

tapi ader byk budak2 hingusan ah. haha. setep kakak2, abg2. eeks.

oh well, so i guess that's where my weekend will go too.

*clap clap*

by de way, dere was this cute lil kitty at bedok central last evening.

it was so hungry. but so cheeky and manje. like me oso. haha.

my fren held de cat, while i rushed to ntuc to buy cat food.

den we lost de kitty cos some eff-ed up morons zoomed off with their bike,

to de skate park. isnt it stupid. de poor lil kitty ran off in fright.

but den it came back to us, and we fed it. well, he fed it.

i just watched.

so cuteeeee la. promised myself i'd go back dere to find de lil kitty again.

ahaha. and i'd be smart and not end up smelling like tuna, like dat person.

muahaha.

sch starting next mth. cant wait actually. haha.

and oh yea, i've decided to get N80.

thanks to someone who keeps drilling it into my head.

but when? i oso dunno. hopefully, soon. very soon.

in de meantime, enjoy ur weekend ppl!!!