he's taking quite a while.
so i'll blog.
based on a conversation i had minutes before.
and the talk i had with Is last night.
i love talks with tt boy.
not every man i know talks rationally yo.

next yr will be a yr of focusing on de necessary,
and letting go of some distractions along the way.

where work is concerned,
i'm planning my goals.
hopefully all will be achieved.

where love is concerned,
i'm glad tt it's not stagnant,
tt we're always making plans,
setting goals,
so it's always an onward thing.

where family is concerned,
de sister will be in uni next yr.
haf to think abt supporting her financially.
bro will be sitting for his o-lvls next yr.
he's smart, but complacent.
hopefully i will be disciplined enough
to be his constant motivator.

where others are concerned,
maybe i would like to clarify sth.

i do things not to get sympathy or get fans.
i am not a politician, actor or singer.
i am a volunteer.
and as a volunteer, i believe,
there's no hierarchy between u and me.
there's no such thing as an "ordinary volunteer",
"senior volunteer", "ex-volunteer",
"main comm volunteer", or "jkp volunteer".
a volunteer's a volunteer.
we do things with the same nawaitu.
i do not crave for power.
esp not in a volunteer work setting.
tt is a joke, my friends, aint it not?

so i do not answer to you.
i talk to whoever i want to.
as and when i like it.

i clearly remember tt i introduced myself as
"Nurain, a volunteer".
i did not use anyone's name,
or any department to back me up.
so i stand responsible for every comment i make.

i made the decision for that particular fonecall
becos i was there for de last week when you arent.
you didnt see the difficulties the ppl
i got close to suffered.
you werent there at 11pm when we all were out
there wondering where to go.
if you were in my position,
what would you have done i wonder?

and darling,
you aint the only ex-gangster ard.
my rebellious past may have been gone,
but clearly,
my daring, outspoken side hasnt.

oh.
and it's easier for me to do all this,
and step on as many toes as i want,
becos one thing's for sure,

i don angkat buah. =)

with that, i rest my case.